i feel like such a coward............ if staring ta the phone for 3 hours isn't enough......... when i finally got the couage to call............ i chickened out the first min i hear ur voice............. i feel so stupid........... so stupid....

i know it's the right thing to do..... i know it doesn't change the way i feel......... i know............ i really do...................... i'm trying so hard to tell myslef.................... but........................... but..................... it doens't change..................

i'm sorri, i'm really sorri