you come and go, latly u've been in my head again, alot of things have been in my head, alot...
latly life seems colder... is it because it's winter? or is it because i feel as though i'm loosing you, though i've already lost you...
it's nice to think that i now know that warm fuzzy feeling everyone calles 'love'. i've always been scared to use that word, L-O-V-E, after all, it's not a concret noun. i've always been scared to be happy, because i know that happiness comes with a price, but i now know, that price is worth it.
someone asked me once, how can you be happy all the time? i didn't answer, and yet i knew in my heart that, if i wasn't happy i would be sad, i rather laugh foolishly and be called a idiot then to be sad about been sad and be called normal....
sometimes i rather just sit, infact, sitting in the park is the best, i don't have to worri about been alone, i don't have to worri about stupid things that don't need worring, i don't need to be human, i just need to be a girl, a girl that needs sometime to herslef.
i wonder sometimes, what if, just what if i could have a wish any wish, just one, then i would wish to understand myslef better, to know what it is that i acurally want, what it is i need, what it is needed of me... i sometimes wonder, hope that no one would notice me and just let me live mysef myslef, by myslef, on a tiny island, of couse food and water will be deliverd/ just for once i want to surprised, a good surprise not a bad one like the ones i've been getting so far.i wish, wish, i knew what to do, i wish i wish i know what to do.
i wish, i wish my wishes would come true