i really wanted to answer.... but i didn't have the guts to do it. so i'll tell u here
其实想对你说的是，下个星期就是我的formal。我心真的很乱，我知道，我喜欢的人是你，可是身边的人都叫我‘move on’。有时候，我会想你care过吗？我也知道说了这句话会先的很selfish，可是我真的对自己没有confidence了。
i don't know what i should do, they're telling me to say yes, but i don't want to. i don't want to, but i don't know what to do. i wish i had the courage to tell u myslef, but i don't. i don't know what to do...
i really wanted to ask, i really did,
but i didn't have the guts to ask, i really didn't, because i knew it would be a 'no'. at least this way, i can just sit back and say, i didn't ask.
i knew if i had asked it would have made it hard on u, so i didn't ask, i knew that if i had asked, it would make me feel bad,
i guess i've been running away, i want to keep running, keep running until i reach the ends of the earth, to run away from it i've been pushing myslef into my work, so that i can keep running. and it's been really hard.
i didnt pick up because i knew if i did, i wouldn't be able to say anything...
sorri....