listening and singing to sad songs...... ahhhhh i'm sooo sad////// = =;;;

it's ok//// 2morow i'll wake up and everything will be happy again.... it will because it has to be.... for some reason listing to the goong ost makes me sad....... it's such a depressed tone...... u said 'talk later' but in your dictionary it means 'talk when i can' which in my dictionary it means 'sorry,,,, talk 2 u after vce',

i don't know y but ‘分手快乐’makes me cry every time........ not the fact that it's '分手快乐’but because in the song theres '你说你不怕分手，只有遗憾难过'.........................

but on ta other side,...... listening to sign.... isn't much better..... but then again because i don't think about the lyrics i guess it's ok.........

i think it's gotten better, at least i have, i think jen's passed on the black box.... at least i hope she remebers.... thanx jen................

i don't know...... feeling confused...... and i guess sleepy............

sometimes..... sleep seems sooo comforting.....

i wonder whats on the other side of life every now and then. i think about whether there is a heaven and hell, and why it is there is a heaven and hell, everyone starts off good, everyone has the ablity to be good, and yet we must judge people on the things they have and havn't done. doesn't god 'not judge'? then y is he judging?

going out on thursday, emily wants to see ta jackie chan movie... = =;;; not that i don't want to be.... jackie chan? well the other person is going///= = i'll be a thrid wheel.......

meh.... i'll find someone to take? i guess i'll havta call brian or chirs or someone... - -;;;;; it'll be awkard........

i wonder if i ask, i'll get an answer..... but it'll be no... so why even try............

if there was somthing i'm good at thats to run away, though i tried to face things head on.... it seems the more honest i am the more i get hurt.....

i'm sure those of you who have seen my phone knows i have rainie as my screen saver, and how it lights up when i dont touch it, well imagin watching it.... and everytime it lights up, i look to see if maybe you called..... but it wouldn't make much of a difference, even if you call i wouldn't be able to tell you what i want to tell you.

it makes me wonder..... it really does...... maybe if i had just been a chicken and ran away before it started then right now, i worn't be hurt, nor would i be thinking 'if only....' i would be me..... watching dramas and think how cute 'kim bum' is, but not anymore..... lost interst in those things, lost interst in the people who walk by, lost interst in things i would usally be intersted in.....

i wish i lived closer.... after all,... yiling and co live soooo far from me..... if i lived closer i would see them more,..... =[

everything is soooo far from me.... everything is soooo distant..... i wish i wasn't sooo far off.....

i wish i had my own room, i wish i could feel comfortable in my own home... and yet been on a street alone is more comforting then been at home.... and yet at the times when i most needed you, your not here, your never here...... never

well i've nagged enough today............................. i've nagged alot..................................................