had a fun day with jess~~~ havn't seen her in ages~~~ =]
had fun... while she went hyper cos there was a guy that looked like henry.... - -;;; i was more intersted in the fact that i wanted a new hat... and new pacer... cos someone stole mine... aka mel..... = =
anyway now i think about it she took my rubber too...
meh.... i'll ask for it back....
ha ha had a fun time at tsfx... lmao chris is such a perv looking at that girl.. lmao....
it's admazing on the way back form ta city, i felt the same way on my brithday....
i don't know... what i'm ment to say, i don't know what i'm meant to do.... i can't say i don't like you anymore, and yet on the other hand, i don't have the right to say i like you anymore. maybe the person you really liked is still at our school, and maybe, thats why i felt as though i was a stand in. i can understand why you liked her, after all, she's pretty and smart. what else would you want.
i knew, i understood, and yet i ignored it, i guess i only hurt myslef. i will work hard, i'll move on, but time is somthing i don't have right now. i guess in a years time, i'll think back and laugh, and yet for some reason i'm always the one that hurts myself. and cause trouble for myself. i will work hard this year to get into uni, though i worn't be doing what i truly want, i guess i'll be doing somthing, at least then i know i worn't be running around doing nothing. it's the hoildays, i guess i dreaded it for a while, knowing i worn't be busy, knowing that i'll have time to just sit and look up. i've always wondered what life is meant to be like, i guess i'm living it, i guess i'm having a go.
i don't hate you, and yet, i kinda wished that i did, so that i could say you were evil, but i understand, i understand....
if someone asked, 'would you like to loose your memory?' now i would like to answer. 'yes, if it were possible'