havn't blogged in a while... acurally i just don't remeber anything these days.... man... working hard on chem.... really hard... and i still feel as though i'll fail.... in fact i don't even know if i'll pass yr 12..... depressed..... =[
other then that i've also been thinking, thinking hard....... but........ i don't know what about......
feeling as though i was in a dark hole.... falling falling..... somewhere..... at terminal velocity....... no warmth, not cold....... not happy nor sad....... and yet, when u pop up on the screen, i'm happy, i know it seems stalkish.... but secretly opening that window and even talking to it makes me alittle better.... and yet... afterwards i feel even wrose..... thinking.... hoping..... wishing.... soooooo hard........................
and yet nothing happens.... feeling hopless, annoyed because i don't know what to do, what is meant to happen... and yet, you seem to be moving on without a trouble..... thinking.... wishing.....
i wonder..... what i'm meant to do... and i don't even make sense most of the time and yet..... in my mind, i'm so set on one thing, that i still like you.....
i wish someone would tell me otherwise.....
soo exhausted from school, mentally, physically and emtionally.....
i wonder if running away will make my life better, a new life, a new surrounding, a new start,.....
i wonder why it is that some of use just seem to be able to move on without a hitch..... is it because they know that there's no point in waiting and sitting, but how do u know that nothing good will come out of it........
tell me.... tell me.... wat is meant to happen....