i'm not quiet sure what is ment to happen now, i can't help but feel as though my life is on hold.
i wish you would understand and come back

i don't know why, but tears are fallling, i know last year i had you, so to me, it was ok, but this year, i don't have you...
i don't have you here, next to me walking me through it.
i don't know why, but i think the 14th of decemeber will always be a date that i will remeber.

为什么看到绿地会心痛，为什么连看蓝天都会心痛，难道是因为孤独？
不晓得什么时候我变的那么的没用，连自己要的都没有勇气去争取。
不晓得你是在想什么，连自己都不晓得在想什么，好痛，突然的痛，一种被关在黑屋里面的感觉，没有光，没有希望，没有办法逃开的。
世界就这样吗？人生是这样默默的过吗？
好希望有个人能带我离开这里。。。

sometimes i don't know what it is i want.... prehaps ur just that case

i was thinking today, under what conditions do u really fall in love with a person.
everyone wants a beauty, once all the beauties have gone in the world what will we be left with? the ugly?
if soe what is ugly?
can someone tell me who the real decider of these words are? and to what extent do we all believe in the words we say. though saying i hate you, and not meaning it is harsh, under what conditions should we lie inorder to protect oursleves and even the ones we love.
is lieing really such a bad thing?
what is lieing anyway, not telling the truth, or hiding the truth. is hiding really all that bad?

昨天好好聊了一聊，现在有一种莫名的轻松。
可是还是好痛。爱过痛过，就这样的过去吧。不过去的放在过去，我会好好往前走的。
再见

i don't know wat is right............ i want to scream cry and yell at you......... yet i can't...............
it hurts me..... to know that u don't care anymore.......