been afairded to fly

i'm afraid to fly, because the higher i get, the harder i will have to fall, just like me been happy, the happier i am the harder the fall i will have.
shall i just stay lonley? at least that way, there is no fall because there is no lower i can fall

tomorow is the last day of MCK...
i am gonna miss it sooo much.....
i'm glad i was at mckinnon, i'm glad that i stayed...
thank you McKinnon for giving me such a great time

>exams are in 2weeks and 2 days now
my first exam, eng
and 3 weeks after that i will be finished
last exam 11th chemistry
i'll miss McKinnon, alot
because after all, it's been my home away from home for 6 years and i think, i'll miss it to bits and pieces, not only seeing my friends everyday, but also the buildings the slack off periods and the teachers that have been there since, since forever, McKinnon i'll miss you, because you gave me the best experience i could ever have had for my secondary schooling.
<3
thank u

为什么有一种天会塌下来的感觉，为什么会觉得那么的孤单，为什么会那么痛。
为什么全世界都那么的恨我。。。为什么只有我。。、

to me it feels like as though it's been almost a whole year without been able to breathe. and just then for the first time in that year i could breath. finally

i sometimes wonder what it is we are serching for in our lives. are we ment to serching for the other half? or are we already whole, just unknowingly.
i wonder what life would be without you, and right now i'm living a life without you. but is it ok for me to still miss you? is it ok to still hold feelings for you. i miss you and i worn't lie. but i don't know how long i want to miss you, nor if i ever want to stop missing you. it's become a tiersome game and i want to stop soon.
i don't know if i've fallen for someonelse. or if it's just a crush. and yet again, you started as a crush now look at it.....
if that someone is reading, leave a message, =]

我怕，我怕如果在让你走近我生活你就会像上次一样，离开我。
我怕，如果然自己再爱上你，我就会离不开
我怕，我怕我心再痛，我怕一个人孤零零的感觉。
如果你变心了，你能告诉我吗？因为我不想变成最后那一个。。。
我好怕。。。好怕。。。