i sometimes wonder what it is we are serching for in our lives. are we ment to serching for the other half? or are we already whole, just unknowingly.
i wonder what life would be without you, and right now i'm living a life without you. but is it ok for me to still miss you? is it ok to still hold feelings for you. i miss you and i worn't lie. but i don't know how long i want to miss you, nor if i ever want to stop missing you. it's become a tiersome game and i want to stop soon.
i don't know if i've fallen for someonelse. or if it's just a crush. and yet again, you started as a crush now look at it.....
if that someone is reading, leave a message, =]

我怕，我怕如果在让你走近我生活你就会像上次一样，离开我。
我怕，如果然自己再爱上你，我就会离不开
我怕，我怕我心再痛，我怕一个人孤零零的感觉。
如果你变心了，你能告诉我吗？因为我不想变成最后那一个。。。
我好怕。。。好怕。。。

给你的

我决定了，我决定在chemistry考好以后我会给你一个星期，如果在那个时间段之内你自动和我联系，就说明我们两个还是有可能的，可是如果没有的话，那我也因该放弃了。。。

is it wrong for me wanting to run into ur arms?
i miss you, i wish u would too, but i don't think so. why does it seem like my world is just about u. u can be the biggest ass in the world and i'll still be in love with you. am i foolish. or am i right, that prehaps you still have feelings for me too....

i miss been me, i miss been careless, having the luxury of just been what i want to be. i want to go back, to that time that i wanted to grow up so badly, so i can enjoy it, because been an adult comes with too many pains. it come with too many astriks. too many painful memories.
i wish i can start again, my life, i would choose to be dumber, because in this world the less you know, the happier you are.

你知道吗？我还在想你。。。
自己坐在椅子上，看着天花板，想，这份这秒你在干什么。看nba?打球?看化学书?看英文？还是像我一样想你在做什么。
一直在想，是不是感冒了，如果感冒了要好好休息，因为要考试了。这几天很冷，天气也一直在变，要多多小心一点。你听的到吗?我对你的关心，担心。
你知道吗？我已只顾着你，放不下。
你知道吗？我常常会担心，你的背是不是还在痛，你的脚是不是还会不舒服。
你知道吗？我心还是痛的。
听到你名字时会是会跳的很快，想到你时还是会笑，想到你时还是会哭。
如果你晓得话，你还会那么的冷淡吗？
如果当初买又说出口，现在还会是朋友，如果当初没有傻傻的让自己旋入这一切，现在就不会那么的痛，那么的无奈。
是我多想了吧，是我错吧。
要考试了，人觉得不舒服，头脑不干净，人也怪怪的。哎，这么办呢，我不想读了。我好怕，好怕，去年的前景再次出现，一年的努力就这样的变成了水，从我手中流掉。我真的好怕好怕，好怕我上不了大学。

明知道爱并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬
朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连个真心多不能给
这才真的真的可笑
爱得太真
太容易
让自己牺牲
太容易然自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
但我相信有点可能
可能在爱里面真的算笨
可是永远没有所谓永恒
但我，不愿放弃这里面一点点可能

同感。。。。。

it kinda hurts. going back to where we were on year ago, and knowing that soon, i'll be there again, the 14th of december 2009, in three months it will be 14th of demcember 2010.
i don't know why it hurts to think about it, it shouldn't anymore, it does hurt, but less than before.
a friend told me to know acception, but when do you know if u've accepted something, is it when it stops hurting or when you forget, because i don't think any of those two things will occure.
i guess i'll never understand acceptance.

好唱一段时间没和大家问好了~呼呼~大家好吗？
我还有16天就可以毕业了！好开心！好开心！