just finished watching tao hua xiao mei.... it kinda made me think..... even though the story line is cheesy but cindy's acting has gotten so much better....
i feel as though that maybe little by little i'm winning you over. for some reason i can't stop thinking about the fact that you felt so bad to see your ex...... is it because u guys had a bad end or because you still like her... if you do.... i don't want to know.... if you don't... i don't want to know....
am i slowing winning maislef a place? or will i never be able to move in. havn't talk in a while... well not a long while cos i'm still (i think i'm still) capped so i'm gonna cheak soon.................. hopefully i still remeber mai password.... skool has been good enjoying it~~~

过去的就让它过吧。。他不再是你世界的一部分了。。因为现在你有了喜欢的人了

考试考好了。。想一想去年的我。。因该还在想着他吧，过去的我真傻。可是爱情也很傻，就算他做了伤害你的事只要他说一声‘对不起’你就会原谅他。现在的我知道过去的哪个不是喜欢而只是崇拜，崇拜他的才华，崇拜他对家人的关心。现在我有了真正喜欢的人，可这次的我，知道这真正是喜欢而不只是崇拜。

这几天我觉得我长大了。谢谢，你，让我学会了怎么真正去喜欢一个人，我现在在这里想跟你说一声‘再见’。

after all that yesterday.... i read back... and also banned you from reading this........ but yes..... some parts of wish you would read this... then maybe you would see what i'm feeling... because i'm scared if i tell u u will run away. tomorow is the last day of chinese school and next year we worn't get to see each other that much.... infact we probly worn't have tha chance to see each other at all..... lets make 2morow a good day,,,, so i can at least hold onto somthing.

every since getting up this morning.... it's been a bad feeling.... but when u replied that text this morning... mai dai got a little better, it might seem crazy but..... when i talked to you about mai past.......... i kind of regreated it.... i should have never said any of those things... because i promised mai slef that i would never tell anyone... but i guess i have now..... sometimes it's hard to explain whats good and bad i life... so at the mom i don't know whether this is good or bad.... because i don't know what good and bad anymore.... is it 'bad' to like you? or is it good? is it bad to tell you? or is it good?

i remeber reading in teh chiese newpaper about 'waht a good man and a rich man can give you' i remeber the author worte 'a rich man is someone who would take you out to a 5 star hotel and treat you like a princess, a good man will take you out to a picnic and make you feel like a princess' the last sentencs she worte in that paragraph was 'if you happen to find someone... it's better he be a good mand then a rich one...' i know 3 years ago i would have said i want the rich man, but now i would say, i want the good man. it's funny how someone can make you change like that... no matter how harrd it might seem it is what has happened. i've changed thanxs to you... i guess i want to thank you for at lest that... thank you....

it's ironic that the person who can make you laugh is also the person that can make you cry. how one word can bring all ta happniese down..... it's like within seconds the great wall of china fell down to an earthquake.
in some ways i understand.... i understand what it is u want..... but in other ways i want u to at least care little more... then before... somehow u gave me the courage to contiune to hope but at the same time the more hope given means the harder i fall.... i wonder.... i know i shouldn't feel this way after all, u never did anything.... maybe it's because u didn't do anything that made me misunderstand..... but is it a misunderstanding? no matter wat..... i don't know....... i don't know what to say..... or how to say it..... it feels as though i tried so hard and let down that wall for it to only be constructed thicker then ever before..... it hurts..... it does at the moment...... how ever this isn't because of u but because of mai stupidity....
that conversation we just had....... can i just forget it? sometimes i wish mai life was a show...... so i can at least have the control over wat goes to air........ however i guess it'll never happen...... i just..... i should just put the mask back on.............. like nothing happened before.... maibe over time these feelings will change.... right now i don't know whether i want them to change..... is it because u've been the only other person i've wanted to open up to? and slowly i have to you......... so right now i'll lock that part away and just be friends//////
i hope u don't read this.... because//// for some reason at the moment.... darkness seems that much more inviting then ever before....
the hoildays will be here soon........... and so will a new year.............

is this wat been truly happy is like? if it is then i don't want it to go away.
my exams are coming up in 2 days now~ for some reason i feel as though theres more of a reason to go for it. some of me is doing it for me, the other to prove all those people wrong. you may be the greatest, but unfortuneatly ur not a 'great' person.
noob 'called' me today~ i was soo happy~~~~~~~ little suprised and got scared and thought wat if it was his mum???? and then when he picked up i was happy
exams are coming and they'll go fast, i just want this happiness to last for a while, so i can enjoy it. in a few months i'll be 18, i'll be legelly alowed to got to clubs ect. i wonde rhwo i'm going to spend it.
FIGHTING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
good luck to all those doing VCE 3 and 4 this year and good luck al
i know it might to be tooo early to be saying good byes but
good bye yr 12~~~ good bye out dear tiffiny.
and thank you for this memorable year!